My Dearest Chronicles

Poetry:- Safed saaree ka uske fir se rangeen hona tay tha, Khaali dil ko uske fir se shaukeen hona tay tha, Ki mil gaya tha usey fir se koi saathi apna, Apni kismat pe usey fir se yakeen hona tay tha. Vo ek bebaak parinda tha, Nikla tha udaan pe, Kisi tarah se nazar padi uski iss saadgi ki pehchaan pe, Dil vahi, vo haar gaya ispe, Jaan ko apni vaar gaya ispe. Ishq pe jisey fir se yakeen hona tay tha, Safed saree ka uske fir se rangeen hona tay tha, Asaan si nahi hai ye kahani itni, Waqt ne fir ki beimaani itni. Koi ek nahi tha jisne inke raaste ko roka tha, Riwaazon ke naam aise hi kitno ko jhoka tha, Kuchh aankhon ko ye ab chubhne lage the, Guroor ke mehel jo ab doobne lage the, Gunaahon ki unke fir sangeen hona tay tha, Safed saree ka uske fir se rangeen hona tay tha. Awaazein goonjne lagi fir goliyon ki, Sehem si gayi awaazein thitholiyon ki, Shikaar karne nikle the sab mohabbat ka, Khoon se bhar dene ko yaadein aisi holiyon ki. Na insaafi ka lekin pairon taley zameen kh...

     There are times when your jealousy creeps into your mind in such a way that it seems impossible to get over it or even ignore it and divert our attention into some other direction. Internet is full of articles which advise us to do the same, to divert our attention as an immediate response to suppress this feeling. We're asked to find out the root cause and sometimes even discuss it with the significant other.      Trust me I tried my best to do so. I tried to figure out what the root cause might be. And there were multiple things that added up to be a reason for the same.       Before I let you know anything about the causes I felt were responsible, let me share the situation which caused me to feel jealous.       My significant other has been my support system all this time. He is a person with an open mind and believes in a lifestyle that doesn't have any unnecessary boundaries. But this too much f...

           Everything you did in the past simply feels worthless just because of one unexpected outcome which you may or may not be the cause of. Have to be taken for granted and left unattended just for that single unattempted mistake of yours. Regret? But for what? For not being able to do something you couldn't do? You have people with their own list of expectations, simple or complicated, they would want things to happen the way they like.       Behave according to the needs and beliefs of the society. Dress the way they like, work the way they tell you to, like whatever they stereotype you to, and above all, well nothing comes above their wishes. You believe you can change the world? You feel you are better in something you like but they don't? You are simply supposed to act, act the way they tell you, not an inch of inacuuracy is acceptable.       You think you are strong enough? There are examples o...

             You cannot use your brain to do multiple things at once. You cannot concentrate if you do not focus on one work at a time. And if by any chance you do so and perform satisfactorily, well then congratulate yourself for being a multi tasking individual.      It's so great to be able to do everything but then, only such individuals know how it feels to be actually someone of that kind. You know a little bit of everything, but nothing as a whole can define you. It's hard, truse it's really hard when such individuals are to make choices. A normal individual would simply go towards the path which leads them towards an easy or probably a more interesting way they would like their lives to be. But what about such people who have an equal amount of love, interest, time and effort for multiple ways? I don't think it's a crime to have multiple choices, but in real, it is actually a carrier suicide as a whole of we look deep...

        You know it is necessary, maybe it's the matter of situations happened multiple times that made you say this. Parting or that what you call breaking up when you had truely been in love is no new thing for the world. It's not even an unfamiliar term for me, but then why does it seems so much that it's different in my case... There have been people in the past gone through it and there would be many more in the coming future, so then why am I feeling as if something out of this world has happened to me. I know I'm in sorrow but still I have my consciousness. So why does it feel like a pain so different from others. It feels like no one in this world would ever be able to know what the both of us are going through. Maybe because we never compared ourselves to anything else. Maybe because we had been so much into each other that we never felt it necessary to even bother about what the world had already gone through. We had done a number of things...